I've been feeling kind of down the last few days and most of the reason is because of the uncertainty and waiting for the future and second, that my clothes do not fit.
I bought a cute dress last week and ended up wearing it three days in a row. Really. I saw different people each day (including my husband). Then on Saturday night, we went to the movies and I wore my one pair of jeans that still fit (I hadn't worn them in 4 or 5 days) and they were tight. As the movie started, I unbuttoned the top 2 buttons. After awhile I just unzipped them also. My one pair of jeans are dunzo. Awesome.
The next day I went to a 1 year old birthday party with my BFF who is also pregnant (2 1/2 weeks ahead of me). My BFF is super skinny, always has been, so I've expected to compete. I knew that I wouldn't be super thrilled about people comparing our pregnant bellies as soon as she told me she was pregnant. But little did I know that I would have 3 babies in my belly to her 1. And I can't tell her (for a variety of reasons). So anyway. I wore Spanx to the bday party which made me self-conscious and uncomfortable the whole time.
Cue today. Today is my mom's birthday. My sister (who is 5 days overdue by the way) and I had lunch with her at Nordstrom's Cafe and since we were at the mall, went to A Pea in the Pod. I didn't want to shop for maternity clothes too early because I didn't want to jinx things, but they are a reality so I either have nothing to wear or I suck it up and shop.
But shopping is fun. : ) I only shopped for jeans because I have plenty of yoga-style skirts to wear. I don't have many pairs of designer jeans in real-life, but I was willing to splurge today. I got one expensive pair of skinny jeans, 1 pair of lighter wash cropped jeans, and 1 pair of plain jeans (which can be my "fat" jeans). Two of them were on sale so score!
My mood was instantly lifted because now I can be excited to put on clothes that still make me look good and are comfortable.
The mood took a bit of a hit when I got home to one mean, nasty blog comment. But since there are dozens of super supportive comments for the 1 mean one, I feel really lucky and happy. Thanks to all of you for listening and offering hugs. It means so much to me!
I did take a belly shot at 10 weeks...maybe I'll show you all soon. We'll see : ).
Now just waiting to meet my little nephew!! She'll be induced on Wednesday if it doesn't happen tomorrow.
I can understand you feeling down. I can't imagine the next few weeks being easy. But relax on weight gain. My blog friend who just has her triplets at 30w measured 47w!!!! It is expected you will be bigger! But I struggled with the weight gain it is v difficult to get used to
ReplyDeleteYay for new jeans! I only have 1 embryo in this belly, but still, my jeans don't fit. I never realized how many of my clothes were fitted before this month :)
ReplyDeleteI'm thinking that in another few weeks I'll have to take the plunge and buy some new clothes, but in the meantime I'm wearing work inappropriate summer dresses and skirts as often as I can.
PS Good for you for focusing on the supportive comments instead of the one nasty one. It's hard sometimes to not take those to heart, but you're right...you have so many more people cheering you on!
My jeans don't fit and I only have one. A lot of it is bloat and in earlier weeks from the progesterone. Either way now I go with what fits and what is comfortable. JcPenny's also has cute maternity jeans, I found 2 pair there as well, online though.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you got some new jeans! I got the AG jeggings from pean in the pod and I swear I want to wear them after the pregnancy - they are so damn cute and comfy! Also, with twins I couldn't do up my pants at 8 weeks, had strangers asking when I was due at 11 weeks and continued to grow at a rapid pace until 16 weeks (even though I lost a twin at 10w5d). Then I finally hit a standstill/even shrunk a little and just now seem to be growing again. Take it as a blessing - many women wait forever to finally look pregnant, and it will hit you fast! The hard part for me was that I had many people ask if I was having multiples (and I just lied as by the time we came out I had lost one) when I wasn't any more. So I just let them all think I was either gorging myself or had a giant baby..... anyways - be prepared! You will be growing for a while, even after reduction I am sure, but you will be cute, and your BFF will be jealous because you will have that perfect little belly in no time.
ReplyDeleteAlso - Don't worry about the negative comments, I can only imagine how hard it is to let that go, but you have to do what is best for you and your family. And only you truly know what that is.
Thanks...It's really helpful to hear from people in similar(ish) situations.
DeleteOhhhh... what type of schmancy skinny jeans did you buy? I am waiting until the end of this hot, humid summer (when I can actually wear jeans again) and am going to splurge on the Citizens. I can't wait!! - Septca
ReplyDeleteThey're Paige. I love them. And I will totally want to wear them after! : )
DeleteI'm glad your feeling better. It's hard even with a singleton to take the maternity clothes plunge. Many are too loose on me in the tummy but my regular clothes are too tight. I tried on small smaller maternity clothes that belonged to my sister's sister in law and some I couldn't get on. Too tight in the legs. I always carry my weight in my thighs. My waist used to be my one tiny place. I'm so sorry about the nasty comments.
ReplyDeleteI love love love Paige jeans. You lucky ducky what an awesome buy. Glad that you were able to focus on the positive comments. Sometimes I wish if people had nothing nice to say they should just say nothing at all. Keep your head up. Good luck with meeting your new nephew. That's gotta be so awesome and exciting rolled into one.
ReplyDeleteAll of this is so great. Except for the Spanx. That sounds awful. Very happy that you are where you are with all of this! =)
ReplyDeletei can't believe how much i've missed. so sorry you had to make this decision, but I'm glad you and your hubby were on the same page. i can't imagine how you must be feeling, but i'm wishing you luck with everything. especially getting your appts in LA outside of the nastiest traffic!!! ;)
ReplyDeleteFirst off, negative comments can suck it. They don't know you, they're not living your life, so yeah. They can suck it.
ReplyDeleteSecond, yay for cute jeans!! It's amazing how much a set of well-fitting clothes can do for you mood. I'm glad you've found something that works!