Update at bottom:
I 100% stand by my choice to talk about what is going on in my pregnancy even though I am opening myself up to "the world." I also knew writing for Hellobee could potentially bring a larger spectrum of readers to the blog because so far it's been pretty limited to the IF community.
And so it's official. My nice little protective bubble has been broken. And it's a little bit stressful, and my heart beats about a million times a minute when I read a mean comment, but I'm ok with it because I am going through a unique situation, but one that others will go through in the future. And there is just not enough information out there about it. So I'm adding a story.
I will still choose not to publish any unsupportive comments. I appreciate your opinion, even when it's mean or attacking me. But since this is my blog. I get to choose.
I think some people are telling people about my blog and the paraphrase: heartless unemotional way that I intend to abort or murder my babies (word choice depending on the author). A few readers thought that it was extra insensitive for me to be writing about maternity jeans making me feel better after a post about reduction. First, the last 2 years of my life have been full of emotion. And my husband and I have used those emotions to in the end, rationally make the decisions that are best for us. I have acknowledged throughout that I do not expect everyone to agree, but if you've only read one post of mine - you don't know me or my emotions. Second, the jeans did make me feel better. About my growing belly - NOT about reduction. That's ridiculous. No wait, maybe I'll buy myself an ice cream and everything will just magically be ok.
Anyway. I hope that if you read my blog, you learn my perspective. I try to teach my students to look at all perspectives of an issue. It's how we learn about people. And like I have said before, I don't believe core values can be changed or at least that they are extremely resistant to change. I think they're formed fairly early in our lives and are pretty fundamental to who we are. I am firmly pro-choice and always have been. I cannot envision a world where I don't have the right to control what happens to my own body. That's what's great about being pro-choice in my opinion. Everyone gets to make their own choice.
In two weeks, I will make the choice to go from a high-risk pregnancy, to a low risk pregnancy.
(I'll post my 12 week update tomorrow...)
So I've spent the last hour or two reading a few women at another blog talk and speculate about me. I know I'm a glutton for punishment, but I really had to read it. I'm not going to name the blog because I am not going to engage in internet bitchiness. But I just have to repeat a few of the things said about me. First they speculate whether I'm even real, but "sadly" realize that I am very real. Then they repeat bits and pieces of various posts and twist them to show how "unsympathetic, callous and selfish" I am. Others wonder why I would post any of this online, why I wouldn't just keep it private. I guess you can read above to answer that one. I wrote one response on the blog telling the author how I found her blog when I first found out that I was pregnant with multiples and actually enjoyed reading it and was saddening to find her then misrepresenting me. I know that this type of thing is extremely common, but I find it very sad. I'm sure these women think of themselves as "good" women. Then why do they feel the need to talk shit about me? I hope that they realize that this benefits no one.