I haven't been outside since September 21st!
It's going to be slightly harder to go see baby since I can't drive for a couple of weeks, but luckily, I have an extremely supportive family included a retired mom who will make sure I get to see him as often as possible.
But now if I want to take a nap (I'm exhausted), no one can walk in and interrupt me. It's weird that even though I don't have baby with me, I'm still pumping every 3 hours including at night so it still affects my sleep. I tried to nap in the hospital but it was impossible.
Now I'm on my own couch, with fresh air coming in through the open windows.
And then I'll go to the hospital with Mr. GG after dinner just like we do every other night. Ideally we would go before and after dinner...we'll have to work out a routine. Then I plan to go every morning also.
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Baby can breathe on his own which is great, but because of his age, he has apnea. He either forgets to breathe or gets too tired to keep breathing. So he's on a ventilator to make sure that he breathes, but he is breathing regular air - the same as the rest of us.
Baby has a Level 2 (out of 4) brain bleed. This is extremely common and level 2 is not extremely worrisome. They will recheck on Thursday and we hope it has not progressed.
He had a blood transfusion today which is also going to be pretty common. Babies of his size have so little blood in their bodies and he can't keep up.
Otherwise, he's looking really good. His little fingers can squeeze my hand. Sometimes he squeezes a tube between his toes (he got his dad's toes...looong toes) : ). He also has his dad's ears and a full head of hair.
I feel happy when I see him, not sad because I think he's strong and can fight. But I do get sad frequently when I'm by myself. I'm sure some of it is hormones. It's hard leaving a hospital without your baby. But overall, I'm doing well, thanks in large part to the support of all of you (well 99% of you).
Just keep thinking those positive thoughts that baby will continue to thrive!