I've been feeling kind of down the last few days and most of the reason is because of the uncertainty and waiting for the future and second, that my clothes do not fit.
I bought a cute dress last week and ended up wearing it three days in a row. Really. I saw different people each day (including my husband). Then on Saturday night, we went to the movies and I wore my one pair of jeans that still fit (I hadn't worn them in 4 or 5 days) and they were tight. As the movie started, I unbuttoned the top 2 buttons. After awhile I just unzipped them also. My one pair of jeans are dunzo. Awesome.
The next day I went to a 1 year old birthday party with my BFF who is also pregnant (2 1/2 weeks ahead of me). My BFF is super skinny, always has been, so I've expected to compete. I knew that I wouldn't be super thrilled about people comparing our pregnant bellies as soon as she told me she was pregnant. But little did I know that I would have 3 babies in my belly to her 1. And I can't tell her (for a variety of reasons). So anyway. I wore Spanx to the bday party which made me self-conscious and uncomfortable the whole time.
Cue today. Today is my mom's birthday. My sister (who is 5 days overdue by the way) and I had lunch with her at Nordstrom's Cafe and since we were at the mall, went to A Pea in the Pod. I didn't want to shop for maternity clothes too early because I didn't want to jinx things, but they are a reality so I either have nothing to wear or I suck it up and shop.
But shopping is fun. : ) I only shopped for jeans because I have plenty of yoga-style skirts to wear. I don't have many pairs of designer jeans in real-life, but I was willing to splurge today. I got one expensive pair of skinny jeans, 1 pair of lighter wash cropped jeans, and 1 pair of plain jeans (which can be my "fat" jeans). Two of them were on sale so score!
My mood was instantly lifted because now I can be excited to put on clothes that still make me look good and are comfortable.
The mood took a bit of a hit when I got home to one mean, nasty blog comment. But since there are dozens of super supportive comments for the 1 mean one, I feel really lucky and happy. Thanks to all of you for listening and offering hugs. It means so much to me!
I did take a belly shot at 10 weeks...maybe I'll show you all soon. We'll see : ).
Now just waiting to meet my little nephew!! She'll be induced on Wednesday if it doesn't happen tomorrow.