OMG

Now that it looks like Dylan is coming home this week...without the g-tube (yay!), I am starting to freak out.

I equate it to how the normal pregnant people feel as they approach their due date. I am going to have my baby at home!

What will it be like? How will Stella do with him? Will he sleep? Will he eat? Will I sleep? How will I do with no sleep? What will we do each day?

I really have no idea what it will be like.

Unlike most moms, I do already "know" my baby. I know his cues and his faces. I know what his schedule has been here on the NICU, but who knows what things will be like at home?

I'm so anxiously excited.

I want to nest and get things ready, but I'm spending most of my time with him, not at home.

It's so amazing and kind of hard to wrap my head around!

But I'm ready...