How am I doing? Not bad. I did treat myself to a BFN treat. Even though it's super cold outside, I had my favorite ice cream shake for lunch. Maggie Moos Sweat Cream ice cream with strawberries and fudge.
I think I would have done everything the same way this month. I took 4 tests; from 10-13dpo and all were negative. This definitely kept me from getting my hopes up which was good. I spotted just a tiny bit on 13dpo and then my temp dropped to my "period temp" of 97.2 this morning, 14dpo. AF hasn't totally started, but it's close. Each morning I decided whether or not to test based on my temp.
Because I now have a normal LP thanks to Clomid, I might wait a few days longer to test next month. But I know that if I hadn't tested at all, I would definitely have convinced myself that I was in fact pregnant.
The hardest thing for me when AF starts is delayed-phantom-symptom-spotting-syndrome. (I made that up.) When I feel twinges, or smell things, or have a headache, or do something stupid, I can no longer blame it on maybe being pregnant. It's hard to notice these things for 2 weeks and then turn it off immediately.
I did email the RE's office on Friday because I had no idea what happened next if I got AF. Here's the deal. Because of how I responded, I will be on the same 50mg dose of Clomid. This makes me feel pretty good. It makes me think everything worked as it should have, we just connected the wrong sperm and egg...so next month we'll connect the right two. So I refilled my prescription at Target today and will start on Day 3.
My insurance doesn't switch until Jan 1 so that makes the decision to stay with the private RE easy. So another $505 for this Clomid cycle.
Then, while I was driving around Christmas shopping today, I remembered my bright side for this month. (Every month I try to come up with a reason that it was good not to get knocked up, quite yet.) This month's bright side is work related.
As a teacher, I go back to school in late August. During the first three days back (before kids come) there is a ton of professional development time lead by me. Last cycle's due date was August 29th meaning I basically could not be department chair next year. A late September due-date will be A-ok : ).
Mr. GG and I did decide that if we weren't pregnant by January that we'd try some new things.
2012 Fertility Resolutions Coming Soon!
Oh so disappointing but I love your positive attitude!!! Here's to drinking your way through the holidays and New Year's celebrations :)
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I'm glad that you're taking it so well and that you have a positive plan for next month!!!
ReplyDeleteDefinitely disappointing, but the bright side? Clomid at 50mg did the job - which is great! Here's to 2012, hon. Here with you! xx
ReplyDeleteHopefully we'll be on the same 'schedule' next month and can encourage and distract one another again :) I'm still praying each day for BFPs for both of us. Maybe 2012 is the year we've been waiting for! :)
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