Today is 12 dpiui and I think 11 dpo. I'm pretty positive that I O'd the day after the IUI which is fine.
I caved and took a test yesterday morning even though I wanted to hold out until Saturday.
When I asked Mr. GG the night before whether I should test tomorrow, he said to wait until Friday. I replied, You can't just tell me to wait until Friday without even thinking about it when I've been obsessing about it for days! Men.
Anyway, it was a BFN and it definitely made me unhappy. But like always, I still held out about 10% hope yesterday. I just feel something this month. It's really small, but I just think maybe. But whatever. I've kind of thought this before. Also, the test was a digital...just fyi.
Today I thought I'd just use an OPK instead, one of the cheapies, since I don't want to use them as OPKs anymore anyway. I thought that the line was pretty dark. Not as dark as the control line, but definitely not light. That made me happy. Now I can just keep using those and see if they get darker.
In case you didn't already know, OPKs can read HCG but pregnancy tests cannot read LH. It has to do with the shape of the molecules. Their very similar, but according to some sites I've read, HCG has "a little hat."
So that is where I am at. I REALLY want this month to work. I'm starting to despair. Like having a baby is hopeless kind of despair (not depression despair). Either way, it sucks. I feel broken. And I want it to work already.
Next month is the re-evaluation month (no meds). Then IVF? We shall see...