Recently, one of my favorite bloggers, Jesica at Just Smile and Blog, wrote a post entitled Two for Three. Over her long course TTC she has only ovulated 3 three times and of those three has gotten pregnant twice (one current, one ended in miscarriage). I sincerely hope this one is "the one" for her!
My stats are quite different. I seem to ovulate like a champ, every single cycle. That puts me at 1/18. I wouldn't even bet on myself with odds like that. And that "1" was so short-lived.
I finally looked up IUI stats to see "if I'm normal" and all that crap. I'm not sure why I never ask about the long term plan when I meet with the doctor. I think it's truly because I'm so optimistic that each new thing will work that I don't need to know yet what happens when it doesn't work.
Basically I have found that for each IUI, there is a 8-20% chance of getting pregnant (studies have found anywhere within that range). That puts it just slightly lower than the normal person average of 20%.
After 5 IUIs, the average success rate is 74%, a much more encouraging number.
Once I started spotting at 11dpiui, I emailed my nurse and asked what the next steps would be.
The results: 1 more 50mg Clomid cycle with Estrace to thicken lining.
Then we reevaluate. Apparently I have to take a month off meds after 3 cycles anyway. This seems like a reasonable plan, so I'm on board.
I didn't cry this time. I don't think I cried last time either. I really think the only times I have cried are the first time I found out my sister was pregnant, the day of the chemical pregnancy, and the day I freaked out at the doctor appt. It definitely has something to do with how long it's been. I think it's becoming easier to accept AF than it will to accept a BFP. It's been built up so much I feel like my BFP needs to be a super BFP. But at the same time, it'll be ages before I'll be able to accept that it's real. I barely accepted it the first time.
So anyway ladies, that's where I'm at right now. Same place essentially that I have been since August 2010. I'm not sure if I've said this on here or not (and don't feel like checking) but I kind of feel like I'm stuck in the same place while everyone around me is moving forward. On repeat. One of my fears was that my friends would start having round 2 of babies before I had one and it's starting. Two people are pregnant with #2 and a few more are trying.
But the bright side is that the rest of my life is good. Husband good. Work good. Family good. It's just this damn baby thing.