The "P" Word

I feel like if I say it out loud, I'll jinx it.

To the people I've told, I've said "I took a test (or 3) and it was positive."  Not, "I'm pregnant."

It just feels really, really weird.

I haven't give you pictures yet, so here are the 3 good ones.  The line is definitely getting darker and today it started showing up immediately, yay!

I know it's super blurry, but Mr. GG is out of town, so I was on dog duty and still had to leave at my normal time...the kids don't wait.  So I had to just take one.  It's pretty clear though!

And luckily, I do have some symptoms to help keep me believing.

Mainly, cramps.  I definitely know what people mean when they say they felt like their period was going to start.  The cramps are slightly different and more focused in my uterus, but I definitely feel stuff.  Some days (or hours) it's just like a mild vague pressure, other times it feels more like AF cramps.  Some times, it's pretty strong.

My boobs have been sore since 2 days after transfer, but not nearly as painful as that second day.  Although it DOES hurt like a bitch when Stella steps on one. : )

I also get really light-headed when I get up quickly.  I guess that's common, but I need to keep working on hydrating and remember to get up more slowly.

And I cry a lot.  Whenever basically anything happens on TV.  It doesn't matter what.

I also noticed the a lot of blue veins on my boobs last night.

I know some of these can be attributed to the progesterone (which is going much better by the way...granny panties are a must), so I'm mostly focusing on the cramping and the positive tests to keep me feeling the P word.

Beta is Friday.  I'm already starting to google numbers even though I know that a bit crazy.

Husband is across the country until Saturday.

AP test is next Wednesday.

Sister shower #1 is Saturday.

Sister shower #2 is next Saturday.  (That's the one I'm hosting.)

Waiting, waiting, waiting and try to relax.