Monday, May 28, 2012

Trying to Prepare Myself

There seem to be a ton of first ultrasounds in the next few days.  I know of at least 5.

This TWW hasn't been as bad as I thought it would be.  I had enough symptoms to keep me occupied and enough business at work to stress me out like crazy.

But the closer it gets, the more nervous I get.

I had a dream the other night that it was triplets.  But that's not what I'm really nervous about.

People have asked if I care whether it's 1 or 2.  I really don't.

I find myself preparing myself for the worst.

I truly believe everything will be ok.  I have no reason to believe it won't be.

But until tomorrow, I really have no idea whether this is real or not.

Which is tiring!

People are excited for me...but I always tell them - wait until Tuesday.  Then we'll be a lot more confident.

I'm tired of waiting.  I want to hear a heartbeat and see a baby and then believe in this pregnancy.  I want to buy books and borrow things from my friends with babies.  But I haven't done anything yet.

Until tomorrow...


  1. Same over here! I keep saying wait until Wednesday. Think I'll breathe a little easier once I get a chance to see what's been happening on the inside. Hoping the u/s goes wonderfully for you!

  2. Thinking of you tomorrow! Good luck :)

  3. I can't even imagine how scary it is to get that point after trying so long. Hopefully tomorrow's ultrasound shows a happy heartbeat (or two) going strong. Thinking of you!

  4. Its almost here, thinking of you!!

  5. (((HUGS))) GOOD LUCK!!!

    Happy ICLW from #3

  6. Monday can't get here soon enough for me! I think I might be going crazy. Glad you are still having the symptoms. Can't wait to hear the results!!!

  7. Good luck today! I hope everything looks perfect. I have my fingers crossed for you!

  8. good luck!! I will be watching for an update :)

  9. I'm thinking of you today (and was thinking of you yesterday and this weekend too - hope your busy holiday weekend was good!)

  10. Good luck today!! Will check back for good news.