Just Waiting.

I haven't had much to say lately.

I guess I'm just waiting.

I haven't even been able to get up the effort to write the Healing Salon summary.

I'm not depressed.  But I'm also not very motivated to do...anything.

I think part of it is the time of year.  Spring Break is in 2 weeks.  Testing is around the corner.  I can't BELIEVE this school year is kind of almost over.  (10 weeks)

And I'm really just waiting for IVF.

I don't like not having a plan, not knowing what will come next.  And I've done pretty well accepting that my maybe baby will not come according to plan either.  But IVF is a solid plan, I just don't know what the plan is and it's frustrating!!

My consult is next Tuesday, so I will know then, but I guess I'm just going through the motions until then (on the blog, planning my classes, etc...not much is getting done except in very short spurts).

Yesterday I had my SHG.  It was fine although I could do without ever having my cervix swabbed with Iodine again.  Gross and uncomfortable.  And then pushing around inside there will both a catheter and ultrasound wand?  Not the most enjoyable feeling.  But no fibroids or polyps, so that's good.  We discussed 21 Jumpstreet while it was going on.  I saw it this weekend and it was hysterical.  Really.  I had low expectations and ended up laughing throughout the whole thing.  I am actually old enough to have watched the original - granted I was young.  Anyone else?

I'm still waiting on my CD3 test results too.  I've gotten 2 results, but need all of them for it to matter.  I guess AMH takes a week?  I'm stressed that it will be difficult to call the right person to fax my results over to my RE.  I keep debating whether to call know before all results are in or wait until they're in.  But if the RE doesn't have them by appt time, appt is canceled.  I just want everything done and settled.  In-between is not my favorite place.

So that's what's going on over here.