I told Mr. GG on Monday night that there was drama in the IF internet community. He doesn't quite get it, but it's totally weird to be involved in a world outside of typical human contact. I'm still a newbie in blog-land. I also do not like drama or confrontation, but I do like to speak my mind (to try to rationalize and calm debate rather than incite it) so I have read all of Mel's posts and most of the comments and have made comments myself. I think it was brave of Mel to post about how she was feeling, but also that she had to do it. And I know that some comments were mean, but I also saw many that were helpful, rational, and supportive to the whole community.
I think it's an important issue that deserves some attention and time.
So here's the take of a 20 month infertile on her way to IVF.
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I understand why PAIL came about. I want a badge, an award, when (if) I finally get pregnant. I want someone to be able to briefly stop by my blog and see that although I am pregnant and/or parenting, that I have struggled through infertility and that my story might interest people still going through it. I would like to see that on other people's blogs.
So I think the "badge" of PAIL makes sense and I'd like to see it continue.
It doesn't even bother me to have a separate blogroll, although I understand why it bothers Mel. And I would still really like to see a PAIL section on her blogroll and have everyone go back to being a big happy family.
Don't we have to stick together? I mean, how can we not? Your success should be inspiring hope in the rest of us, not making us feel worse that we are stuck where we are.
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Which brings me to the separate IComLeavWe type of thing which is totally disagree with. I'm joining IComLeavWe for the first time this month, but I've followed it for a couple. I rarely read the parenting blogs. I'm not there right now. It's a protection type of thing. But I'm still glad they are there. I only began realizing this in the last month or so as I started to learn more about IVF. I looked for more blogs of ladies who have had IVF successes so that I can understand more and have more realistic expectations and understanding of the process. When I'm in the mood, I will seek this info out. If I'm in a more sorry state, I will stick to people in the same stage as myself.
But moving the conversation away is like deleting the old blogs that Mel discussed. It's valuable and deserves to be shared.
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Some people have complained of losing readers after becoming pregnant. Well, I've lost readers because they have become pregnant. And it kind of bugs me, but I also completely get it! I've joined a ton more blogs since I wrote my post on Pregnancy Blogs. Basically because I want to keep expanding my network outside of the forums since they are no longer meeting my needs because of where I am in this journey.
I will unfollow some of those blogs at some point. It might be because you are at a very different stage than me. It might be because I've just found myself not clicking on your posts as often. But like I've seen many other people say, if I "know" you (in the internet sense), then I will keep following you because I care about you. I may read fewer posts, but I will check in every now and then and see how you are doing. And I really hope that you do the same for me.
But I don't think that pregnant bloggers should change what they post. I agree with unaffected that it actually makes me feel a bit worse to be "shielded" from information. I want to have the choice whether or not to come read. I'm a big girl and although I have good IF days and bad IF days, I would like to do my own censoring.
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I think it all comes down to the fact that we all have a right to feel the way we feel. We just have to choose what we want to say to the world and understand that it will have an effect. I think there is a way to be compassionate and true to yourself at the same time.