Let me take a second to try to process how I feel about the upcoming showers I will be attending and/or hosting.
I think I'm 90% ok with it.
The first shower is next weekend. It's for our good friends who are pregnant with their IVF#1 baby. They got married exactly one year before us and started IVF time-wise, at exactly the same point we are currently at (just last year). So she's kind of like my IVF mentor. I absolutely want to be at her shower.
She, on the other hand, completely quit going to baby showers when she was around the same IF point as me. But she's a bit more emo than I am : ) (which she would readily admit). So I'm not really worried about attending her shower, but I think I'll have a little anxiety about whether someone will ask me something or say something to make me want to cry.
Then there's my sister. Here's a review of my sister/s baby timeline:
After I had been trying for about 6 months, sister calls me out of the blue and says she's pregnant. I respond by crying. (After I get off the phone.) I'm a little distant and bitchy until she has a miscarriage about 2 weeks later. Shit. Now I feel like the worst sister in the entire world! (My sister and I are very close. We talk just about every day.) Jealousy issue solved. It takes her about 6 months after a 2 month break to get pregnant the second time and I have been excited for her every minute. She's due in late June.
My mom and her MIL are hosting a shower for the "adults" and I am hosting the shower for the "kids." I'm a little worried about it. I've already gotten excited about buying stuff for my new nephew, I even have a pinterest board devoted to him, and I want to paint cute murals in his nursery. But something makes me feel weird about planning the shower, at least all by myself. And I can't exactly explain why.
I actually really love baby showers. My mom emailed me to see whether I thought decorating onesies was fun or cheesy. I responded that I love cheese (and decorating onesies!).
I think the issue I'm having is putting in a lot of time and stress planning while going through IVF or right after IVF. If it's successful, great. But if it's not, I'm afraid at how I'll react.
I'm really hoping that I'm pregnant at her shower. That way I could entirely enjoy the day (instead of 90%).
These will be showers 3 and 4 since I started TTC.
How have the rest of you dealt with hosting and/or going to showers?