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On Monday night I watched Giuliana and Bill and The Little Couple back to back. Oh my god was I bawling! Ok, not really bawling, but lots of streaming tears (without any of the choking or audible crying).
On Giuliana and Bill they were preparing for Giuliana's double mastectomy. Their RE told them that she shouldn't get pregnant for at least 5 years because of the risk of stimulating cancer growth with all of the hormones. They have two embryos left from their last IVF and they decided to go with a gestastional carrier to conceive.
It was amazing that they were basically signing the papers for the gestational carrier i.e. practically conceiving a baby, just as she was heading in for her surgery. How scary to have both things happen at once! But I also agree with her that the baby will give her something to look forward to and focus on besides the cancer.
And although it scares them, it's basically their only option.
Then, on The Little Couple (which I have only seen occasionally) they happened to be doing an egg retrieval. What?! How did I happen to stumble upon this show, on a totally different channel, right after Giulana and Bill? Anyway. She flew to LA for the retrieval - with 3 follicles - but got no eggs. It was really sad. : (
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I really like that infertility has become more of a common topic on reality TV. Khloe Kardashian (as much as I can't stand that family - I've only seen one episode of Khloe & Lamar) is even struggling to get pregnant. Having these "famous" women share their infertility is really helpful for the rest of us.
I'm still not public. But I kind of want to be. I'm just scared to post to ALL of my Facebook "friends."
But I am very open about my struggles with all of my IRL friends. Over the past year and half plus I have figured out who to share with and who not too. 90% of the people that I've talked to have been excellent. They ask questions and show concern and support. 10% (the socially awkward type) can only say weird or annoying things, even when they mean well. These are the ones that I stopped sharing with as soon as I started ART. I'm thinking about opening my blog up to some of these people. Especially my friends who are also struggling to conceive.
While I'm on the topic, I want to talk about my mom for a sec. She is so careful with me, that she typically doesn't bring up the subject. And it actually bothers me! So she ends up thinking I don't want to talk to her about it and I end up getting annoyed that she isn't asking about it. So last week when she kind of brought it up, I told her the truth. I want her to call me and ask. It's much more awkward to call her and bring up the topic. I think she gets it. (She was just trying to protect my feelings.) And I'm glad I told her what I really want.
What I've realized through reading all of your blogs is that we are all a little different in what we need from others, what bothers us and what doesn't. But the best way to know what someone struggling (from anything: cancer, IF, divorce) needs is to ask.